Still in Awe

Well, the excitement has not died down here!  We are still super excited to know that we are going to have a son and a daughter and are still letting it sink in! For months, years really, we have wondered whether our first child would be a boy or a girl, its kind of crazy to think that its not boy or girl, but boy AND girl!  Still in awe of God's goodness in blessing us with these two children. 

Please know though that it the midst of our excitement we are very aware of the loss that is involved in all of this too.  We are very aware that us being able to adopt these two precious children means that their birth parents are not going to be raising them and there is a whole lot of loss that comes with that.   I actually have a whole post I wrote about that that I will share with you soon.

In the meantime, I thought I would let you know what we have been up to.  Adoption grant applications, lots of them! Marc and I have been carefully saving and planning so that we could afford to adopt and we had the money to pay for everything.  Until, well yes, a boy AND a girl does mean that we will need to pay our placement fee twice.  And no amount of planning or saving on our part is going to make that much money appear as fast as we need it.  Its like God has been saying, "don't rob me of the chance to show you and everyone who knows you that I am the Great Provider. I want to show My glory in how I am going to provide all that you need to bring these children home."  And so, just like that we are reminded once again that we can't do this alone.  And do you know what?  We are glad, even excited.  We know that when we come to the end of ourselves is often when God can show up best.  So, we are excited to see how He is going to provide.

And in fact, He has already started providing the extra money.  I already have a really cool God story to tell you, so stay tuned!