A Shower Invitation

Today, a dear friend of mine handed me a shower invitation.  I have been given lots of shower invitations over the years, but this invitation was different.  This invitation was for MY shower.  I got choked up just looking at.  I am going to have a shower, people are going to give me presents for my children.  I have children. 

As my eyes fill with tears, all I can think is, God is so faithful.  Even when we don't see Him working, He is.  He is working for our good and His glory.  If I could have had it my way, I would already have a couple of children running around my house.  I would have already had a baby shower or two to celebrate the children I was expecting.  But God. God in His infinite wisdom knew that I needed these two children on the other side of the world.  And He knew that they needed me. Its kind of crazy to sit back and think on the journey God has had me on, so very different then the journey I would have originally chosen, but now?  I wouldn't have it any other way.  I am so thankful that this is exactly where God has me, that I haven't had baby showers and that my bedrooms are not yet filled with children, because then we wouldn't be adopting our two precious children.

Infertility and the ache to be a mom have been heavy burdens to bear at times.  But God.  God is so gracious and, when I have let Him, He has carried these burdens for me.  He has walked with me through some hard times, comforted me when I have cried, healed my broken heart, and given me hope.

And now, He is giving me children.  Two precious children that I have yet to meet, but will get to meet so very soon!

Things are still moving forward and it looks like we are still on track to travel this year!! We received approval from immigration for our kids to become US citizens and we have uploaded all their information to the embassy in Bangkok.  Just a couple more little steps and we should be given dates for when we can travel to Thailand. Our kids need to get their passports, hopefully that will happen this week.  Once they have their passports, we have to file some paperwork for their visas and then we will get tentative travel dates.  There are two adoption board meetings in December.  One is on December 3rd and the other is on December 18th.  We hope to be at one of these....with our children!!